After Thanksgiving blahs

It has been awhile since I have written. Another example of my lack of discipline!
My family was here for Thanksgiving. We had a nice time, relaxing and trying to keep four toddlers occupied. The family got to see our new house, and the new baby in the family...sweet Breyden. I had the priviledge of being in the room when he was born. Absolutely incredible. Lindsey did so much better than I ever imagined she would. I am so proud of her for that whole experience. To see life coming in to this world...wow. I still get chills just thinking about it!

I registered the kids for preschool today. I can't believe they are so big. Isaiah will be going to Kindergarten in the Fall. It goes by so fast. I feel like there are so many times, where he is in my way, or bothering me. Then I spend the rest of the day feeling like a rotten person for feeling that way. I pray that God will begin to help me react differently to my kids and my husband. I want to make the most of every moment with my boys. I want them to be my priority. Their needs above mine. I am tired of being selfish with my thoughts and time and energy.

Father please help me to be more patient - to love without limits. Help me to never turn my boys away, physically or emotionally. Help me be a soft place for them to fall on. May they be men of honor and integrity. May they love people, see them as You do.

Please help me to be a woman of wisdom, of a soung mind. I pray that I will learn more of You every day, that I can grow more like You every day.

Thank you for your guidance, and continued love.

I know that I would be an absolute wreck of I didn't have the love and grace from my Heavenly Father. Thank you God that even in these down times, I know things are not hopeless.